fahronah

fahronah @ 2009-12-26T15:24:00

2009-12-26T07:24:57Z

i didnt realise my insecurities were actually growing.

soul-search

2009-12-26T05:18:14Z

considering my inner self ain't that strong,
depending on external events is not so easy afterall.
i'm just getting negative energy now.

meeting's cancelled today. i'm feeling super restless/moodless.
probably was the xmas party.
i need to start on my work today. wee?

screw any post-menstrual syndromes.

fahronah @ 2009-12-22T20:45:00

2009-12-22T12:46:21Z

i am not really looking forward to end of year.
i only just started on my project. i am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay lazy to do it.

fahronah @ 2009-12-16T12:03:00

2009-12-16T04:03:43Z

i almost got hit by a car today.
and then, on the way to school, i imagined what it would be like, if i really did get hit.
i was thinking how saiful would be tearing at the side of my hospital bed, or how dugong would look away.
with the tubes around my body, mylips charred, my right cheek scarred. my arm broken, my left torso slightly burnt.

just because of my carelessness. and what huge burden it would be to my mom and sister. or even my father?

cos i was listening too intently soler II, i forgot to look to the right.
i am more realising how precious my life is. not because of how others would appreciate my presence when i'm gone, but what i, myself would miss, being around the people i love most. even if it means going through fucking hardship, it is all worth it.

from now, i would left, and right, and left again before crossing the road.
hehehe.

and oh, Soler II is still abit not fitting in. or maybe because i'm being too slow to fix my itunes playlist. HEH.

meeting today, i am early, cos i thought it was at eleven -_-.
seriously, being slenger is a lifetime illness for me.
nice to take a break from work, even though i wish we didnt have as many as five projects so i can work extraaaaaaaa.
I SHALL WORK ON CHRISTMAS! woo.

fahronah @ 2009-12-13T22:37:00

2009-12-13T14:37:44Z

boys will always be boys.

world

2009-12-13T04:35:06Z

OKAY PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!
its time to indulge in the wonders of the internetsxz and itunesxz and korean moviesxzsxz and the big bangsxzsxz.
WOO! i am feeling much better today.
cos all the delicioso food from east coast yesterday, buang already! hehehehe.

MISSON FOR THE DAY: CLEAN MY SUPER MESSY ROOM

i only have 3 weeks off school. well if you subtract that with the amount spent on projects, i will be left with the number of tahi lalats on the side of my ass. i swear. FIVE PROJECTS DA DEYYY~

fahronah @ 2009-12-12T12:42:00

2009-12-12T04:42:39Z

i had prata and sardine in the morning (11.38am) and i'm feeling super lethargic right now. i do not know why. maybe i was lazing too much on the beach yesterday or really tired from studying.

rm was easy peasy, yet i blew it. fm was just TEKKK, fail. by now, i know myself, and how bad my memory thinking is. HAIZ. thinking about it 20% would really help if i was fighting for a better grade in each module. but it's over. i might as wellput 200% effort frommy mst, to my school projects. though right now, i feel really really useless and disappointing, its making myself feel even more lethargic. haizzzzzzzzzzz. i guess i'll use today as a timeout. i wish i could go to the beach again.

i saw faz anyway, at bugis. hahahahah that babats.
omg, i need a break.
maybe some hot coffee, some jason reeves, rainy weather, in a nice cafe setting, my book, just by myself.
my life's a messy pigsty now. or maybe its just my brain.

ive had the rest of you now i want the best of you

2009-12-03T02:23:52Z

i dont know why, but sometimes i find reasons to wear his clothes.

and it really does not matter if i'm upset. high need of affiliation right, chris?

fahronah @ 2009-12-02T23:32:00

2009-12-02T15:32:45Z

and it's times like this, when i compare myself to her.

fahronah @ 2009-12-02T03:23:00

2009-12-01T19:23:52Z

the only thing that keeps me going now is, Myra's cheese biscuits.
wooooooo delicioso!

fahronah @ 2009-12-01T11:51:00

2009-12-01T03:51:34Z

i want a blackbird, fly.

and wilfred just reminded me how we lost, so badly.
i'm sad now):

fahronah @ 2009-12-01T10:48:00

2009-12-01T02:48:54Z

i'm feeling slightly better todaaaaaaaaaaay, its the start of december. why did november went away so fast? ):
i just remembered dearest jaesuk is leaving us. ): why.

i'm feeling so awake now, maybe a relief from GEMS CA assignment, but what the hell, i have four chapters of astro-navigating to study for tomorrow's test. i simply misunderstood 'introduction to astro-navigation' being F-U-N. but i think its Mr. Tong (SAM PAH). But I am definitely looking forward to next term, we're learning the Moon and the Stars and whatnots. right now, its meridians, and latitudes and longtitudes and angles and planes and stuff. have to chiong GEMS TODAAAAAAAAAAAY!

plus, happy news: Miss Wenda said we need not come for the make-up lecture today, since we cant go through today's tutorial without the lecture.

and i have sweaty paaaaaaaaaaaaaaalms. the uccd class was dark and almost empty as usual. and suddenly i feel very positive today. maybe it was the nescafe and the chicken pie yesterday. (evil laughter)

it feels like i havent seen my big-ass sidekick yet. just glimpses of her blonde-streaked hair.

miss wenda is giving lecture noooooooooooow.
and the mini orang lollipop bayi gave me, does not taste like oraaaaaaaaaaaaaaange ):
macam sour prunes.

and i was supposed to go to the gym yesterday. but fate failed me, and i ate KFC black pepper chicken buddy meal with saifo instead. SEDAAAAAAAAAAAP, finger lickin' goooooooooooooooddddd!

and MST's coming. i am worried for every single paper that i will sit for. ten days of mugging, from todaaaaaaaaaaay.

haiz december.

fahronah @ 2009-11-25T23:36:00

2009-11-25T15:37:01Z

i suddenly love my room.
Thanks to Assopoppulus.

lets dance,

2009-11-25T13:28:06Z

i am seriously full. mom just served a full plate of fried rice, and i pushed half of it away.
refreshments at hr seminar were not really tempting, but i still ate 4 crabmeats, 3 eclairs and two short hotdogs?
aaaaaaaaaaand early morning i had a nice hot cup of milo and with two slices of bread. (oh and the fried mee from food haven!) i am seriously full, alhamdulillah!

and after ten hectic days of mugging and pms-ing, i finally decided to spare some minutes to pray. and it felt real good. mmm.

and dugong and i have a sad story to tell. ):

i want a

2009-11-21T01:55:32Z

and those crazy leggings.

fahronah @ 2009-11-21T09:29:00

2009-11-21T01:30:09Z

i have a headache right now.
a wet pillow of tears at home.
i'm at school now. hungry, i feel my eyes swelling.

and i actually dreamt of my birthday. bodoh pretended to forget my birthday, and he brought me to this 'geylang' corner which looked more like the fullerton side. and he said he needed to go to the toilet. suddenly suhaira came, giving me a box of shoes, as my birthday present. and i hugged her so tight. hahahahaa! but it turned out as if it was a joke, cos the shoes was much bigger for my ronald-mcdonald feet size, hmph.
and and before that, yus gave me a birthday manicure present at the face shop! SO SWEEEEEEEEEEET, NOT! hahahahaha stupid makcik.

ah yes, my birthday's coming. somehow not really anticipating it ): i wish november would go reaaaaaaaaaally slooooooooow. reaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallyyyyyyyyy sloooooooooooooooooooow. please?

p.s. my mood themes messed up :E

fahronah @ 2009-11-20T16:53:00

2009-11-20T08:53:34Z

and maybe a slice of cheesecake. ):

to lose you, i cant maintain

2009-11-20T08:08:08Z

for a moment, at 12.05, i felt like choking him. but i guess i should let him off. he needed more than i will or can do, to realise everything that has happened for the past 7 months.

AND I'M CRAVING FOR ICECREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM ):
but i have only five cents, after i digged out my invictus bag):
gosh.
i want some icecream. maybe the ones at citylink, or maybe a tub of B&J's, or just a cup of choc fudge sundae

HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

and i seriously am tired, i have lack of sleep. and i hate that my sleeping pattern is disturbed. cos i miss UCCD lecture yet again, for the third time in a row. BRAVO FARRRRRRRRRRRINA. and i fell asleep in this uncomfortable couch in the library.

plus, I HAVE NOT EVEN STARTED A PROPER SENTENCE IN MY UCCD REPORT.
i feel like a loser.

MISSING PERSON: DUGONG

2009-11-17T06:17:43Z

my sidekick didnt come to school today. she disappeared totally. maybe because of what happened yesterday, but i dont even know what happened yesterday. didnt even hear her dugong siren sound.
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

fahronah @ 2009-11-17T13:27:00

2009-11-17T05:27:22Z

i was standing at the atm, i asked for yus' account number.
and she thought i was seducing her -__-

FAZ THE PHONE OPERATOR IN THE HELICOPTER

2009-11-16T20:46:52Z

UNNIEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LETS GO BUY MORE FACE MASKS SOOOOOOOOOOOOON! (:

faz unnie,

2009-11-16T20:41:48Z

its been ages since i last stayed up to do some schoolwork. i should probably start doing so, cos my brain juices are flowing much better than 8 at night. heh, i had a good 3 hours of nap just now.

i went to St Andrews Cathedral for my UCCD project just now. was quite amusing how the whole church was built and everything. it was cooooooooool! saiful tagged along to help take the photos and also settle his curiosity as well.

so while munching on double cheeseburgers, we settled the outlined content for our 8-pages report. i was anticipating to reach home as wellllllllllllllllllllllllllll, cos mom made apple pie for dearest-turned-fifteen-sister. omg, she's fifteen already! hahahaahhahaha!
saiful tagged along, to fill in the blank. MOM COOKED FRIED MACARONI, and POPIAAAAAAAAH! wah sedap! and the apple pie was DELISH! i made the crust for the huge apple pie HEHEHHEHE. not so bad for a beginner at apple pie eh ma? we shall try some more next timeeeeeeeeeeeee:D

i had to miss berok's coffee tasting thoooooooooooough ): i missed a ball-rolling-in-the-mrt action JUST NOW! hehehheheh
DUGOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG THE BALL IS RESTING. after a long day. and no-value prepaid. -_-

i had lots of fun todaaaaaaay, and DEAR VANNA, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY :D hehehehe.

i am looking forward to tomorrow. well, i need to, cos i've got report-editings and more research to dooooooooo.

well right now, faz unnie is only starting on her assignment cos she just got an idea after watching FO. hahahahhahaha! i cant stand her. her laughs are contagious. but she's worth the companion at night when youre hoping your report to be done in a blink of an eye.

she had these head microphones on her WOW hair. HAHHAHAHAHAHAHA i thought it was really hilarious. and she had the volume on so loud in our conversation, i thought it was a 'Wink'. (yknow the lady with the huge lips laughing) but it was actually herrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA, damn it. she' s crazy. :D
SARANGHAE UNNIE.

fahronah @ 2009-11-16T09:50:00

2009-11-16T01:56:01Z

i aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam hungryyyyyyyy.
heh, kicked off a bad start for the day.

aku baru perasan terdapat satu nandek(pimple) di dahi ku. yang sunggoh menonjol dan sakit rasanya.

and i zuper late for schoooool, but miss jacq is always nice. cos despite being late for every other lesson, before and after today, she just keeps quiet. (plus cbm, last semester too) i'm just wondering i'f i'll get CHILO for participation ):

i was happily walking out of my home with soler being dressed in his new blue shirt(: then i realised something was missing. it seemed like i was 1,283,293 metres away from my hoooooooooooouse, but i dragged myself anyway cos i forgot my handphone): stupid. i always forget my phone when it being the most essential part of my every day. but anyway i was sweating my head off. i swear.

but it all cools down after a long 20-minute train ride, cos Mr Mrt Operator turned on the airconditioner wild. wooooooooooooo, i hate being sweaty.

i'm heading to church later for UCCD. am somehow anticipating, and maybe not?

BY THE WAAAAAAAAAAY (oh, redhotchillipeppers)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BONCET, lend me your expensive headphone one day. HEHEHHEHEHHHEHEHHEHE
(: be a good sister to me okay THANKYOUUUUUUUUUUUSXZX. we must chiong poa during december and the months to come(:

seriously have alot to say about apec, where's dugong? i hate mondays now, cos i'm always late, and train rides a bore cos there's too much space when dugong's not in the same train):

oh oh! maaaaaaaaaaybe seeing berok. i miss that teksar. she wanted to give me cheesecaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaake, aku sedih. pasal apec aku tak dapat cheesecake.
BUT OMG, i got like two spoonfuls of chilli crab. worth all the pain in the shoes, the baggy black pants, the sweating armpits, the makeup, the sweating upperlip, the floppy fringe, and whatnots!

but gladly, i'm not feeling too tired for apec already. like i said, work's piling. so no more excuses, i said no more farrina. remember, you wanna do as well as anyone else riiiiiiiiiiiiight.

uhmmmmm right.

I WANT DRUMSSSSLETSSSSSSS

fahronah @ 2009-11-15T18:39:00

2009-11-15T10:40:18Z

APEC was a wooooooooooooooooah-tiring day.
only that i wish i could have called anyone to tell about my long 12 hours over at esplanade.

wooooo, paycheck soon i hope.
on the other hand, work's piling :/ and i havent started. cos i still feel dead tired.

okay that was an excuse. i'm freaking lazy.

fahronah @ 2009-11-11T08:12:00

2009-11-11T00:15:01Z

i hate this feeling.
i seriously hate it.